Dear Uterus ~ Hysterectomy at a young age

Dear Uterus,

I know we've spent our lives together, but it's time for you to go now. It's going to be hard, it's going to be sad, but it's for the best. I'm sure it will take some time to get over the loss of you, but I promise this will make my life so much more manageable.

I will be losing cervix and fallopian tubes as well, but they haven't caused as many problems as you have. They have apologized and reconciled, but you all will be leaving me together. Cervix and I have had our fights over the past, but it has been fairly more reasonable to deal with.

So this letter is for you uterus, for I will miss you the most.

As I sit here waiting for the scheduled day, I contemplate everything we've gone through. You gave me a very embarrassing start to womanhood, however, I'm sure it was hard to tell what time of day it was inside my belly - so the embarrassment is forgiven.

This womanhood gave me pain, aggravation, cost me a large amount of money, and drove me absolutely insane for about 2 of my teen years. Again, you are a part of me so it has been forgiven.

I'm sure it's hard being a uterus and all, but the tantrums you've thrown have gotten out of hand. The trips to the ER to stop your three week to two-month-long fits were becoming too expensive. Your inability to regain control of that temper with the aid of a BC was beyond me. I tried to reason with you over the years, but you've refused to reason with me. Again, all is forgiven.

You gave my husband and me two beautiful children - this I cannot thank you enough for. And this is the reason it will be hard to let you go. I don't know if you were upset with me for tying my tubes, but your fits of rage makes me think that I hurt your feelings when I decided not to have a third.

It's those fits of rage that have made this decision a little easier to handle. Your issues are out of hand and the only way to stop you is to remove you completely. I tried to combat your attempts to kill me with large amounts of prescribed iron supplements...but you've set my liver against me as well and the pain in my side was too much to handle.

So I've dealt with you in silence (my husband will surely disagree with that). I've mostly dealt with you alone (not counting all of the doctors that are upset with you as well). I've tried to reason with you, but there seems to be nothing more to reason. My body can't handle you in its living space any longer. My life is becoming too difficult for you to remain. You're making me sick and it's time for you to go.

In a few short weeks, I will begin the aggravating process of preparing for your eviction. My fears of caffeine withdrawal are nothing compared to the loss I already feel for you. I'm preparing myself for not only the physical pain of your loss but also the emotional pain. I will forever love you and accept you as a piece of me, despite the fact you will no longer be here.

I am sorry to do this to you, but it has to be done. I'm sorry to Cervix and the Fallopians as well, but mostly to you uterus.

So with a heavy heart,
A large amount of fear,
And a sigh of relief,

Goodbye.